I'm so fucking full of pent up rage tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I started off trying to write about hopes and wishes, then went to a poor me rant about our infertility and after ALL we've been through still losing Kristen! But it's not enough, it doesn't take the edge off of what I'm really feeling, I just want to put my fist through a wall, or throw my computer off of my desk, anything anything anything to get rid of this horrible feeling inside of me!
The further we get from the day we lost Kristen the less people seem to think about it or seem to care, and I know I can't expect everyone to mourn forever. But I will. I just want my baby.