Wednesday, March 23, 2011

And here comes the pain!

I thought I had been doing good.. well as good as can be expected.. I've had my moments over this past weekend, but for the most part, I've been doing okay.
NOWWWWW... reality hits. We're home again, I'm not distracting myself like I was when we were at Natasha's house. I'm here, and Kristen isn't. FUCK.
Every second is a reminder of what should be in my life, and what isn't. I just want to crawl somewhere and hide..........................


  1. Anything you can find to distract yourself with? I have a hard time with that also when I'm not with friends or at work.
    Them darn reminders are everywhere, sometimes they can be soothing but many times that isn't the case.
    I hope your day gets better

  2. Reality--it's a bitch. Sorry you're having a hard time. I'm right there with you this week. :(

  3. So sorry that you're doing it tough at the moment... my heart and thoughts are with you. Every second can be so painful. Love always xoxo

  4. Thanks for the comment on my blog. I read about your loss of your sweet baby girl, Kristen, and my heart breaks for you. I hope that you are able to find some peace and that you are able to get your rainbow soon. Take care & God bless. *hugs*

  5. I think life will always be a roller coaster for us...hopefully the hills and valleys will become less steep and deep as time goes by. You are not alone in any of your feelings!
    Thanks for the comment on my blog...have to tell you I actually went and saw an ENT to rule out something being seriously wrong because I have had that "lump in my throat feeling for about a month". Good thing nothing is "physically" wrong with me...this emotional stress is really starting to takes its toll on me :(
    Hope your days and weeks get better once again...(((hugs)))

  6. Im so sorry! The pain is unreal at times.. it hurts, it stings makes you want to scream its not fair and stomp your feet. Allow yourself to feel these things. Know that there are many of us out her praying for you and cheering you on!! Sending much love your way.