I don't have the energy to keep my friendships any more. I love my friends, and most have been supportive to me... but I just don't have the desire, except for a few of my closest, to call or visit with anyone anymore. I wonder if they'll survive, if these friends of mine will miss my calls, and make the extra effort to see me, or if they'll fall by the wayside. Things have fallen into a whole new perspective, and there really isn't much anymore that falls into the 'important' category. Family of course, that was always first... but other than that, like I said, I just don't have the energy!
I spend my days, taking care of Jenna, and keeping my house in a organized state of chaos.. and blogging. Right now, all of you other Mamas are extremely important in my life! You give me hope, and reassurance, which is exactly what I'm needing! Maybe someday, I'll turn off the computer and turn to some of my old friends (who knows if they'll still be there for me) but for now... this is okay.