Thanks so much for everyone who has lent me their support over the past few days, I've been such a mess, and I really appreciate your kind words.
I know that I won't be able to be at peace if I don't try again. I've tried to convince myself that maybe I could, it didn't work.
So here we are again. I'm still moving forward. I know that these next few months are going to be hard emotionally, but at least we're trying. If it doesn't work this time, I'll know I've exhausted my options, and I'll deal from there. Of course I'm hoping to God it works out in our favor!
This is where I'm turning to work out some of the darker fears involved in this whole process.... and I'm sure I'm going to have other moments of pure anxiety. But again, I thank everyone who has thought of me during my 'crisis'
Sending you all so much love!